In some ways it feels like an eternity ago that I sat here and talked about how nervous I was for my induction and how excited I was to finally meet Baby Em - in the sense that I feel like I've always known her and that I can't remember what life was like Before.
In other ways I feel like I just blinked my eyes and my maternity leave is over (though I worked half the time I was out) and it's time to get back to real life. It's hard to believe that she's nearly three months old but at the same time it's hard to believe that I've only known her for three months.
And then there's the Big Kid - just thinking about time flying is enough to bring tears to my eyes. He turned FIVE this month. Five. Such an old number. This week, alone - on Monday he started Kindergarten, Tuesday I realized he had outgrown his carseat, and Wednesday we discovered not one but TWO loose teeth. I thought that he looked a little bigger and felt a little heavier, but wrote it off to being re-conditioned to holding a tiny baby. Nope, he's just doing what kids do.
I always thought that I wanted two kids much closer together in age, but now I can see the benefit to spacing them out. Watching the older one grow like a weed and become a new person seemingly overnight makes me appreciate these baby days even more. So for now I'm content to enjoy the weight of a warm baby napping on my belly (we'll pretend that sleeping anywhere else is even an option for her) and soak up as many cuddle hours as possible, because I can see the overwhelming evidence in front of me that these days that feel like an eternity of sore boobs, sleepless nights, diapers, and laundry, will be gone before I know it. Before I'd like.
gee I hope you were not waiting for comments here. Thanks for the update. I don't know what happened to blogland activity. Smartphones and twitter I guess.
ReplyDeleteNice picture. Looks like big guy has propped up a doll next to him. She is a doll I bet. The whole timing of babies is a relatively new concept for society. Before the pill there wasn't much timing going on. The previous methods didn't work so good. Most of our kids are spaced out by 5 years. It's weird to try to plan and schedule life and the world around us too much. Living, loving, growing, relationships and unfortunately dying can't be forced into a schedule. People need to work around nature's schedule and nature doesn't publish a calendar of events.
It's hard for me to watch Little C grow so fast- I can't imagine what it's like for you. Especially since I think you're with me in having that Calvin and Hobbes -"The summer is slipping through our fingers like grains of sand!"- mentality when it comes to time. At least you can take some comfort in the fact that C is growing up to be such a smart and kind-hearted little guy. And lord knows the world needs more of that!
ReplyDeleteSo happy to read an update - and what a great update it is! Crazy how fast it goes. Glad you're enjoying it from the bambino perspective and the giant 5 year old perspective!
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